Kayla was officially off of breast milk as of Monday . . .meaning I'm no longer grouchy and moaning about pains in my chest and already enjoying the feeling of waking up without sore spots on my ribcage from wearing a bra all night.
But yesterday Kayla got sick. And when I say sick, I mean sick.
She's running temps of 103 and won't eat anything but yogurt because her throat hurts. As soon as I picked her up from daycare I phoned the doctor because she felt hot enough to cook an egg on her forehead. So for now its just a virus.
But knowing that its just a virus doesn't make me feel any better when she can't sleep because she's so miserable. It doesn't make me feel an better when I have to hold her all night because she just wants someone to make everything all better. It doesn't make me feel any better when the ibuprofen I had to drive to 2 stores to find isn't helping bring the fever down.
And so here I sit ready to start my day at the office and all I can think about is going home and holding my baby so that she knows that mommy loves her.
That and the possibility that stopping breastfeeding led to her getting a virus.
Either way I'm probably the droopiest looking girl in the office today.
3 comments:
So sorry. This happened when I weaned Mason...only he was just 4 months old. Oh the guilt! But you know that's not it...right?! The weaning did not cause her to magically get sick!
Shoot. Poor Kayla AND poor you! Of course it's a coincidence but mommy guilt is a powerful thing, isn't it?
Kayla is a lucky little girl to have a mommy so in love with her. A sick baby is the worst part of being a mommy. Wish I was closer so I could hold her, too. Love, love...............
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